You'll Never Know

You are beautiful to me in a way you'll never comprehend.
The sound of your heartbeat; so close I can hear your existence.
The warmth of your body brings a sense of calmness to my soul;
setting my heart aglow.

Your heart, deeply wounded, from a love to bright for my eyes.
I can't give you what your heart desires and this causes me grief.
Secretly and silently, I love you.
I want to stay and love you; forever.

I will on my own and you'll never know. 

Gravitas

"Definitions bring about meaning and descriptions. Words exist for communication. " I remind myself of this daily. I am struggling to exist. My attempts to not be a recluse fail daily. This is my last resort. I have found the meaning to gravitas. Somehow, that word means everything to me right now. I have spent the last 3 weeks researching what it would take for me to be serious about the next level of my beloved existence. Writing it out...all of it..seems to be the right  answer, for now. I feel pretty great, because this is a huge step for me. I will be great at this. Breathe. I am an intelligent being. I will be great.

Closer

Closer. Closer.
Inching closer to that goal.
Day 3...a promise...it's meant for me.

I just can't stop..and won't even think about quitting.
I can taste the sweetness of success.

Closer. Closer.
 

love is in the beginning, middle and end.
born to love, live to love, and die for love.
live to fullfill the desires of your heart
die because you loved the life you lived.
be remembered by the imprint your soul displayed.
be loved for who you were..
die knowing you cared...infinitely

More than this.

There's gotta be more than this. More than the way you look at me as I pass you by. Your eyes call out to me, I see into your soul. I want to touch you, hold you, and not let go. More than a sense of security I feel when you're around me. A vision of pure romance fills my mind; your lips softly touching mine. Your arms surrounding me with your strength, your will, your passion. More than what arises in me when I know you're near. I reach out to touch you, with a smile, a hug. There's gotta be more than this. This is not enough. More than I can take. When I close my eyes, to sleep, I see your face. I dream of you. There's gotta be more than this.


There was more..and it was in our 1st kiss.

Nous

I am quite ingenious when it comes to communicating how I feel on paper. However, communicating with other human beings, is becoming quite difficult.